My flute teacher, Prasad Bhandarkar, is a very skilled and patient man. He is very persistent too. And so am I, with my practice. I practice enough NOT get kicked out of the class but NOT enough to make any tangible progress.
Last week, he expressed his rarest emotion - frustration - at not practicing enough at home. My friend Srinivas, and myself, didn't do enough to show anything, not even a promise. In his own subtle, soft, yet stern manner, Prasadji expressed displeasure.
But, I didn't feel anything. No guilt, regret or anything. Earlier that week, I stuck to my practice schedule - about an hour for 4 to 5 days. Some times practice was quite boring. But I was committed to it and gave it a sincere attempt.
Results didn't show that. Probably because the attempt was sincere, result didn't effect me. Though practice sessions were boring at the beginning, they did get interesting as the hour went by, hence making the process a very enjoyable experience.
I observed that we free ourselves with the result/outcome if the attempt is 100% sincere.
PS: Click 'skilled' and listen to 'Tranquility' composition by Prasadji. The Swara Mandali you hear during Alap is played by me .... yay!
OK, I am getting attached to the result.Labels: flute, prasad bhandarkar, sincerity